Monday, February 17, 2014

Photos of the Week

The snow is melting..... and slowly are my fears.

rain drops on a branch photography-growcreative

I had another doctor's appointment and I had more bad news.  The endometriosis has probably spread to other organs.  At first I was sad. I was scared. I was stressed to the point of exhaustion.  There's no cure for this and I don't want to be in pain forever, treatments are expensive and drug side effects are awful, but amazingly and miraculously I feel ok now.  I feel peace.   

I had been harboring so many fears for my future for so long, but day by day I'm learning how to let go of those.  It's a long process, but it's so much better this way.  It's so much happier. It's a better way to live.  

I can't say that it's my will power or strength alone that has gotten me to this point. I can't take that much credit.  It's the prayers of those that love me... the many many prayers offered on my behalf for so long.  It's the love of a Savior who I know lives and who I know for certain knows exactly how I feel.  It's the power of a greater being, someone who loves all of us more than we can imagine.  If any of you don't believe in God right now, choose to.  Choose to believe because there's no way we can find true happiness without Him.  I would have given in to my fears long ago if I didn't believe in God.  I wouldn't have made it this far.  I wouldn't have the joy I have now, in spite of health problems.



5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you're fighting this battle, but I'm glad to hear that you're finding some peace. Your photography is beautiful as always!!

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  2. I've just recently started visiting your blog...and I've been enjoying your creativity so much!
    I'm so sorry to read about these health problems, but I was really touched by the first line of this post...praising God that your fears are melting away!

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  3. i am so sorry that you are going though all of this. i think i have commented on this before. we are about the same age i think. i have similar issues as well and just had to get the iud and am unable to have any babies {sad face}, and it's super stressful on me and has no affected my marriage. i can totally relate so if you ever need to chit chat let me know. at least you were able to have a baby before all of this happened (: everything happens for a reason, remember!

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  4. Beautifully put Elise! And, beautiful pictures!

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear this and heartened to hear of your inner strength. *hugs*

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