Hello! I'm back! I spent a few weeks recuperating in Arizona with my family. They have a considerably large yard that I could wander around in taking pictures. The walking was good for me physically and I discovered that the prickly pears were in bloom! So pretty! Turns out those walks were good for my soul too.
It was on these walks that I had time to come to terms with just how I feel about this hysterectomy. It's the hardest thing I have ever had to let go of and the sadness is deeper than I thought at first. I wanted more children of my own more than anything. I still cry every day. My biggest hopes and dreams have been taken away and I have to find a way to let go and be happy. I can't imagine facing this without my faith in God.