Last week, I drove as high up the hill behind my house as I could go at dusk and tried to capture the golden light and the reflections of the mountains in the lake. It was a gorgeous site and a wonderful escape.
Do you ever have those moments where you wish you could hide under a rock and just stay there a while? Even though I'm a grown-up I still have those moments.
I was born into this world scared of most people. That's just how I came. I battled shyness all throughout my childhood and now still into my adulthood. There are times when I'm feeling well and I'm confident and I feel like I can meet the world without batting an eye. Then there are times when I wish I could just dissolve or hide so that I would be safe. Maybe it's the tiredness and the stress of having an incurable disease. I don't really know why, but sometimes I feel very small- hence the wish for a rock to hide under.
At this point in my life, I'm more comfortable and ok with the kind of person I am. More comfortable than I've been in the past. I am a more-quiet type person and for years and years I was made to believe that there was something wrong with that. But the older I get, the more ok I am with the way that I am. Introverts have some of the best qualities and I'm learning to appreciate that more.
So even though I still have my moments, I don't apologize for being quiet because I learn so much by listening and observing. And the world needs more listeners!